Hello Sweetie

I know I don't use this blog much, but I figure I'll start.

In lieu, of some recent events and plans and plots amongst my friends and myself. Mostly involving  LED hula hoops and a certain country's pop music scene. Something I don't see combined much -which is odd to me being as a select few groups do have music that can be hoop danced too, With some practice.

Anyway, I'm on this website and the question is asked, well it's more of a topic that is used to entice playfulness and humor rather then seriousness.

I don't do well with that, I tend to think too much and thus end up rambling.

-I want to make friends with THIS type of person- and -I want to try THIS with my new friend-

.ach.

Those who I call friends.. we all fall into a neat little group called -freaks-. Or broken damaged people. At least to 'outsiders'. We're the role players, LARPERS, cos players, art and music addicts, video gamers, obsessed with books and movies and music to fandom levels. We don't just watch a show we get -absorbed- into it.

Try to ask  me about Sherlock, Dr.Who, Supernatural, Community, Game of Thrones,  or any of the other shows I obsessively watch.

Let's not get into the whole Harry Potter (SLYTHERIAN AND PROUD), Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, Evil Dead, Ginger Snaps, SAW, Paranormal Activity, Night of the Living Dead, Dawn of the Dead, Day of the Dead, Land of the Dead - zombie thing..

-did you miss me did you miss me did you miss me?-

-I'm not a psychopath, I'm a high functioning sociopath-

-BE BORED AND SHOOT THE WALL-

-I am fire I am death-

-YOU ARE A DRAMA QUEEN-

-HAVE TO DELETE SOMETHING-

-my precious-

-Moon of my life, My Sun and Stars-

-Raggedy Man, good night-

-Am I the only game piece on board who doesn't underestimate those denim-wrapped nightmares?-

-I wasn't playing. And I don't want to be a lady.-

I still cry over the love and loss of Khaleesi (Daenerys Targaryen) and Khal Drogo in Game of Thrones; cheer for Khaleesi and hang onto her storyline as if my life depended upon it -powerful woman with DRAGONS? YES PLEASE!-. I smile at Sherlock's cleverness and laugh when John finally knocked his block off then they both got awfully drunk and Sherlock's Mind Palace called a chair a sitty thing - and how he threw a man out a window.. several times.

To screaming MOFFAT over every DR.Who and Sherlock episode, to wanting to knit the 4th Dr's impossibly mind breaking scarf of garter stitch DOOM...and knowing that one hour in I'll break down crying and wrap myself in a blanket and do little else but watch dr.who on netflik while I eat something that is bad for me.

See there I go again, rambling. This happens. In person if you hit the right topic I can go on and on for HOURS, try me. Bring up the importance of space travel and multi-planet habition and I'll go on a tirade about human over population, terra forming, and the utter importance of the science and space fields.

Then I'll most likely bring up various movies and video games to support my ideas.

My friends? No different. But most of us, if not all of us.. are not what would be considered in the popular media as -normal-. We're in FANDOMS, now Let's get something straight here. A Fan and a Fandom is very different. A Fandom will go to war for you, a Fan will stalk you outside your house and try to kidnap you (or just obsesses over you). a fandom will save you, feed you pie and drop you off at your house with a plushie and a blanket. We're a TAD saner as what you produce is what we feed on.

We're more interested in what you can do - make, then YOU in some cases. Of course we form our own little emotional bonds with the various actors, actresses, musicians. Most of the time it seems like we're more interested in the -characters-, or the person is just so loving their job they ARE the character, and They can make us smile because they feed off our joy just as much as we feed off their work.

That's what I think anyway. And now once again I'm FAR OFF BASE AGAIN.

Let's try this again.

-I would like to meet and become friends with someone who feels they are lost and alone. Someone who feels like they have no friends, that they are unloved, unwanted, and worthless. Or perhaps just in need of someone to talk to...Because I know how that feels. That was my entire school age childhood, all the way until I graduated high school. - and I don't want anyone else to feel that way, because it's never true. But it's very hard to recover from, and often you don't. It stays there like a little dark shadow, that will push you down at times and sit on you so you can't get back up again. No one should feel like that. - I would take them Ghost Hunting with me, I have done this before and it is quite fun. Sometimes - something happens. You hear something, or see. But some times it's bad like a push or a bad scratch, or a growl. But there is something adventurous about wandering around in the dark, staying quiet and waiting for 'something to happen'. Then it is fun to go over the video, audio, and photographs. Last time we got some very good EVPs! Though...they weren't friendly, have to be more careful next time.-

.ach. but I won't post it though, the time frame has ended for that I think.

But it is fun reading the replies, most are from non-English native speakers. But it's their 'tone' used that is amusing. It's all so 'cute'. Most are quite young. Well to me that is.

But I have many friends who are younger, most of them are. I have a few around my age, or older then me. But in the 'fandom' friends I tend to be the one of the older ones. I'm not sure what that may say about me. I feel territorial over them. Like an alpha wolf protecting it's pack mates. They are very dear to me, even if I don't say it much or express it. They are important to me. I still drift away at times and feel oddly out of place, mostly in my own head. Too many people around talking all at once tends to confuse me, or make me feel awkward so I tend to walk away, or slip away is a better term. I go hide until someone notices I've vanished.

Most often I'm not far away, another room or area, doing my own thing. Or just with a single other person.

Sometimes I feel as if in large groups I have to -dumb down- my wording so others who don't know me, won't get offended or confused. Where as with my close friends, whom I spend time with on a one on one or just 3 or four of us together basis, it's easier.

Mostly because they understand my sarcasm, and when I'm comfortable around someone. I do the stupidest random shit.

I've gone times when I did little but tell someone how their face was various fruits, to just staring at them wide eyed. then pointing at them until they freak out.

However the odd habit of quietly sneaking up on people and just STANDING BEHIND THEM, until they realize someone is -THERE - and thus causing them to scream in utter horror...Is a tad creepy, I should cut back on that.

Nope. Not gunna cut back on that.

I just spent an hour on Pintrest. Looking at 'funny pictures'. I think I'll meander over to youtube and just make a night of it.

Or watch Sherlock and go to my Mind Palace.

Shut up, don't say anything.

You lower the IQ of the entire street.

And your face?

Your face is a kumquat.

OH? One last thing...


Bad Wolf